Well tomorrow I will be 23 weeks pregnant. Today I got all ready to go to church and just spent a lot of time on me. I feel like myself again. I feel happy and pregnant, which hasn't been the story of much of my pregnancy.
I was sitting here waiting to take the sacrament and I was thinking about my career goals before I got married.
I always wanted to act and direct films. I wanted to create amazing things like that. And while I still love doing those things. I realized why I loved to do them so much. I love to direct movies, and write scripts and write books and direct plays and act in films because I really love to create. I will always love to do those things.
But then I discovered why I am excited to be a mother and a homemaker. I never thought I would be willing to sacrifice some of my own dreams in order to have children, but now I'm starting to understand. My love for the things in the creative world come from a deep, Godlike desire to create. When I am a mom and stay at home, I am responsible for creating a world for my children. I'm responsible to create a home that is full of peace, love and order. I get to create a child, I get to create a world, and I get to create an environment with my husband that will bless the lives of our family.
Doing my film projects and acting projects also fills that need to a small degree and while that is good, I have found something better. I have found something eternal. I have found the best thing and that is why I am willing to make the sacrifice. I will still do the things that I love to do, but my first priority will always be to my family, because that is the best thing.
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